solivagant

hOI!

So this is my only time in the space of this evening to write a post, because i’ve been super busy every night this week.

Considering the fact that I recorded a demo of this song today and am going to play it live tomorrow for around 200 people, I figured that I’d share it with you lot.

‘solivagant’ means wandering alone, by the way.

And here’s my updated track list, I took out so many songs because I didn’t think they were my best. I’ve also been writing,

  1. broken one
  2. scarlet and crimson
  3. third
  4. to jupiter
  5. without a moon
  6. drunk
  7. poison
  8. earthquake
  9. cavity land
  10. ultraviolet
  11. masquerade
  12. apricity
  13. solivagant
  14. eigengrau

So yeah! Here is “solivagant”.

there we stand
darkness has
it’s hold
on us
\
and we don’t
need some
one to 
take us home
 \
and our eyes
don’t see
each
other
 \
our minds
drive us
alone
and voices
blend into
the sound
of nothing
 \
we are equivalent 
 \
 we are
surrounded
but we are
distanced
 \
we are solivagant
words
mean nothing
when you don’t
hear them
 \
they seem to
get lost
on their
way to me
 \
and i am
in front of you
but it seems
I’m not here
 \
pull me
down from space
from this isolation
set me free
and voices 
blend into
the sound
of nothing
 \
we are equivalent
 \
we are 
surrounded
but we are
distanced
 \
we are solivagant
yes 
i hear
just fine
 \
and yes
i have
some control
of myself
 \
i don’t
understand
my mind
 \
some part
of it
is lost
i guess
and i
am different
 \
i am
solivagant
 \
but i will
find you
 \
i will
find you
 \
and this world
won’t be so
lonely
anymore
 \
and this world
won’t be so
lonely
anymore. 
Yeah!
I’m very very very excited to play this tomorrow, i’m third in line for performance (hahahahahhaah third, oh the irony), and I get to play it on a grand piano.
Ah.
If you didn’t catch this song’s meaning, it was written about feeling distanced and all
alone, even when you’re surrounded with people, or talking with other people, whether that’s in real life or over technology. It’s a feeling of detachment, and feeling like whatever you’re facing, there’s nobody standing with you.
Which is something I feel, that’s why I wrote a song about it.
Sorry for the sad message.
AND you are not alone. I may be contradicting myself for things that I’ve felt, but you are not alone. And sometimes, things we feel don’t have much logic attached to it, anyway.
But yeah, feel free to leave feedback in the comments.
I hope you liked it.
Have wonderful lives.
-Victoria

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