this post may be triggering to some viewers.
I don’t feel good right now. At all.
Therefore this post will be a little different.
When it comes to me, my music taste shifts depending on what I experience. I get new favorite songs that I relate to because of that certain event.
Also, I attach emotions with certain songs, and I’m probably not the only one who does that.
There are some songs I can’t listen to because of the painful connotations.
There are some songs I listen to to try and wipe away the painful connotations of those other songs.
I’m going to tell you about a song that brings me back to when I was six years old.
Selena Gomez-Tell Me Something I Don’t Know
Sure, it may seem stupid, but the reason why I find myself thinking of this song is because it brings me back to my life untouched by depression. A long time ago, I used to play Pixie Hollow. This was a site that was eventually closed due to lack of funding (the company couldn’t pay the staff running it) sometime in 2013.
But when I was little, I was obsessed with Pixie Hollow. And when I used YouTube when I was this young, I watched other people play Pixie Hollow.
When I call my memory forth of when I watched Pixie Hollow on YouTube, I keep remembering hearing Tell Me Something I Don’t Know in the backgrounds of loads of those videos.
Therefore, whenever I listen to it, I have the innocent, peaceful, fun connotation.
I remember what it was like 2 years before it went down the drain. I know everyone grows up and loses that feeling of youth and innocence and that type of thing. But they don’t lose their happiness.
Listening to that song that I attach to that kind of eye-of-the-hurricane feeling, it makes me realize how I really have spent a lot of my life with a dark cloud above my head.
Going through things, your interpretations of songs changes. Either you truly understand the message, you have something that it reminds you of, or perhaps it’s just a song you like that you don’t relate to.
Do you know what I mean?
And how I feel right now? I would never wish this among my worst enemies.
That’s all I have to say.
Have wonderful lives, and I want only the best for you all.
*i’m not okay (i promise)*