music connotations.

this post may be triggering to some viewers. 

I don’t feel good right now. At all.

Therefore this post will be a little different.

When it comes to me, my music taste shifts depending on what I experience. I get new favorite songs that I relate to because of that certain event.

Also, I attach emotions with certain songs, and I’m probably not the only one who does that.

There are some songs I can’t listen to because of the painful connotations.

There are some songs I listen to to try and wipe away the painful connotations of those other songs.

I’m going to tell you about a song that brings me back to when I was six years old.

Selena Gomez-Tell Me Something I Don’t Know

Sure, it may seem stupid, but the reason why I find myself thinking of this song is because it brings me back to my life untouched by depression. A long time ago, I used to play Pixie Hollow. This was a site that was eventually closed due to lack of funding (the company couldn’t pay the staff running it) sometime in 2013.

But when I was little, I was obsessed with Pixie Hollow. And when I used YouTube when I was this young, I watched other people play Pixie Hollow.

When I call my memory forth of when I watched Pixie Hollow on YouTube, I keep remembering hearing Tell Me Something I Don’t Know in the backgrounds of loads of those videos.

Therefore, whenever I listen to it, I have the innocent, peaceful, fun connotation.

I remember what it was like 2 years before it went down the drain. I know everyone grows up and loses that feeling of youth and innocence and that type of thing. But they don’t lose their happiness.

Listening to that song that I attach to that kind of eye-of-the-hurricane feeling, it makes me realize how I really have spent a lot of my life with a dark cloud above my head.

Going through things, your interpretations of songs changes. Either you truly understand the message, you have something that it reminds you of, or perhaps it’s just a song you like that you don’t relate to.

Do you know what I mean?

And how I feel right now? I would never wish this among my worst enemies.

That’s all I have to say.

Have wonderful lives, and I want only the best for you all.


*i’m not okay (i promise)*

19 thoughts on “music connotations.

  1. ah, i know what you mean. i grew up playing animal crossing! (which is how i found dan and phil, actually)

    coincidentally, i distinctively remember “i’m not okay” suddenly blasting into my ears in a sort of skit using the characters on youtube, so that song really sparks nostalgia.

    AND fren, i don’t know you or what you’re feeling now, but just remember that although it might not feel like it now, your sadness is only temporary! i understand that things happen totally out of your control, but it’ll get better! you can get through it!! [says encouraging things, makes you tea, throws cats at you, etc. etc.] 🙂

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    1. 1) isn’t it funny how we all find Dan and Phil in different ways? for me it was just like “hmm so i’ve been hearing about this dude named danisnotonfire, perhaps i should check him out” then ended up going to TATINOF a while later.
      2) that’s a funny coincidence!
      3) aww thank you! unfortunately for me, my sadness is not really classified as “temporary”, (mind problems woop), but rather, the sadness caused by certain things IS temporary. but thank you so much, i’m trying my best to have all the hope i can have that the future won’t be that terrible. it really means a lot to me when you say these things, thank you!

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      1. 1) it is, isn’t it? i didn’t go to tatinof, but many of my friends did. it seemed like a lot of fun, according to dapgo and yt red haha
        3) o but that is where u r Wrong™ my pal mental illness is not always permanent do not worry fren things are not too likely do not be upset (assuming you’re too young to get a full diagnosis now) surround yourself with the Things of Happy and they will add Yay to Your Day®
        source: mother is studying psychology and so do i woohoo

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      2. 1) it was amazing
        3) i understand that they aren’t always permanent, but it really feels inescapable sometimes, like I really will have it forever. It sucks in the moment. But I’m still going, am I not?

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